I like Sunday mornings. I can sleep a little longer than usual and wake up to enjoy breakfast in my home kitchen. I can read the Sunday paper, or Reader’s Digest at my own lazy pace. I don’t have to rush to take my kid to school. There is no need to beat the traffic jam. Just one whole day of free time to do whatever I like.
I moved to my own house one month ago after so many years living in rented property. I spent some money widening the kitchen, installing kitchen cabinet, plaster ceilings and dining lights. Even with my less than perfect colour differentiating capability, I tried to get matching colours – or at least what appear to me as fitting.
Moving into own house does not happen everyday and it’s worth the effort to make it comfortable and pleasant to look at. There is still poorly done paintwork that’s waiting to be re-done. My contractor friend has promised to fix it free of charge. The kitchen fan has to be repaired because of a leak coming from a dislocated tile on the roof after recent very heavy rain. The old 200 ringgit dining table is still waiting for something better, perhaps marble, to take over its job. The faithful fridge, bought when I was still single, has been doing good job for close to 8 years. But now it is begging to retire, tired of being packed full every time we go shopping. The stove, a relic of my town house days, seems to do its job better now that it’s accompanied by a smoke exhaust fan fitted into the kitchen cabinet.
The list of things to do is even longer for the living room. There is not a single picture or decoration hung on the wall yet. It gives me time to admire the empty space and consider the many ways of how I can make it beautiful. Every day after office, I stare at it as if offloading all the burden of work and pouring it onto the virgin wall. Only four of the ten down light bulbs are still working after one month of service. The first blew up within days of our move. I feel like I have been conned by the saleswoman. They were all made in China, just like almost everything else these days. Even famous names like Phillips and Panasonic can’t help but outsourcing their manufacturing there. There is some space for another set of sofa. I am thinking of filling it with some teak furniture but that can only come if my employer is kind enough to give me some bonus in a few months’ time. That teak set has to compete for money with a display cabinet under the stairs, however. I saw in one of the other houses, a very elegantly done display cabinet under the stairs going up to first floor. Instantly I fell in love. I’d told myself I would order one for my home. I need something to take my sight off from the ugliness of the corners under the stairs. Then again, I better spend my money on nice curtains. They are windows to the outside, blocking the punishing afternoon sunrays and shielding my privacy from the people passing by.
It’s ironic. When I was small, I used to live in wooden house and used to dream one day I would be living in concrete walls. Now, I prefer many of my house stuff to be made out of wood. Except that I can’t afford all of them. Only last week I spent quite a sum of money to put on some awning on the first floor balcony. The awning, just like almost everything else in the house is copied from my next door neighbours. But, while they spent more than 100 thousand on renovation, I can only afford a fraction of that. He’s a businessman with auto workshop specializing in service and repair of Mercedes. I am only a wage earner.
My home is about three quarters up a hill somewhere about 30 km from KL. One hot night I went outside and took a look at the lights from houses in the valley below the hills. It was so beautiful, quite and peaceful. My mind took me back to my old kampong. It was nice to live there. My grandmother, the only close living relative I have there, visited me some weeks back. After some weeks she could not wait to get back to the kampong although she was going to be alone there. My brother and I persuaded her to stay a little longer. I could not understand why she was in a hurry to get back home. But slowly I realized that after some time your home becomes part of you. The furniture as well as the living people in it become the context in which you live. They give meaning to your life. That night, after seeing the beautiful stars, hearing the distant noises from cars on the highway below, feeling the cool night breeze flowing among the trees, I began to realize that, despite the nostalgia of twenty years living in a village, I am going to settle down here. This house is now my new home.
Sunday
17 April 2005